Tomorrow is my last exam of the semester and I am still here! By brain has not burned up and turned to ash after all. Wish me luck, people. I will write again sometime after Christmas. There is more to do as soon as the holiday is over. I hope everyone has a blessed day.
Archive for December, 2009
Posted by newlawmom on December 20, 2009
Posted by newlawmom on December 17, 2009
Wine tastes good and I’m a non-drinker.
Time does not move backwards.
Time changes everything, Thank God.
Brains get slower, bodies grow older, and the children don’t care either way.
The world will go on with or without me.
There is no way to know, but I sure can get drunk to avoid thinking about it.
Moving onwards. One exam to go. That is Monday.
Posted by newlawmom on December 16, 2009
So what have I learned after a year and a half of law school and one semester of evidence? That I know nothing. That no matter how much I know, there is more. That no matter how much I study, how hard I prepare, how many hours I devote, I will not or can not have the level of knowledge or competence that comes from experience. It simply is not possible. So, two days before my open book exam, I am unable to get a perfect score even using my outline and exceeding time limits. There is more. I am missing it. And I am scared, frustrated, angry, and unhappy. I am used to doing well. I am used to success. I am not used to this. I don’t want to get used to this. And I do not like it. Who the hell knows how I will do on this exam? Not me. I have no idea. Right now I feel like I deserve an F. Because if any of these hypothetical clients were relying on me to analyze their evidentiary issues, they would be investing their faith in the wrong person. So for today, I am going to hope this means I am doing well. Because last year I didn’t have these disastrous feelings and I did ok, with less effort and more worry. This year I have studied without any anxiety at all. It is simply the results of my studies that have me worried. I’m not looking at evidence tomorrow. I am done with it. I have reached my maximum evidentiary capacity. My brain is turning off. Good night.
Posted by newlawmom on December 14, 2009
I love to sleep, and as I’m sure I have mentioned, I am a night-person by nature. But I had a dream that was interesting. In my dream I was talking to a doctor about wishing I could be more normal and get up in the morning. He laughed at me and told me that I simply needed to pick up and move to the west coast where my clock would be perfectly in tune with their hours. I can’t stop thinking about this and I wonder if it is true? If I moved to a place where it is four hours later, my 2am bedtime would suddenly be 10pm and my 10am wake up would become 6am. That would be so sweet. Does anyone think it would actually work?
And the snag – my tax exam. It is a take-home and I have hit a snag with it. I am allowed to research and I will need to do that. My confidence in getting an A on this take-home exam is going down the tubes. Want it? Yes. Able to accomplish it? Not sure. Tonight I need to spend some time with evidence. That will be my first in class exam, on Thursday. I’ll write again before that. I hope all my readers have a great week.
Posted by newlawmom on December 10, 2009
Purgatory? Hell? Isolation? I’m not sure. But for the next 11 days, I need to work my tail off. I have: one paper to write, one take home exam to complete, and two exams to prepare for. It’s not like I haven’t done anything, but until today, I haven’t felt the pressure. That is why I stay far, far away from the law school during this time of year. Now if I can only learn to turn my home into a study zone I’ll be in business.
Posted by newlawmom on December 8, 2009
Walking into a review session with outline in hand and realizing that everything the Prof. had to say was on my outline, in proper order. Oh yeah. I’m happy. Now…on to Evidence.
Posted by newlawmom on December 7, 2009
I do love criminal law. I love the idea of being a criminal attorney. And as a result, I enjoy criminal procedure. Overall, I have been disheartened that the protections offered by the constitution don’t offer as much protection as I thought they did. There is no protection for people who claim they are the victim of profiling or discrimination by the police. Those claims must be brought under the equal protection doctrine rather than under the 4th amendment. Consent doesn’t mean much. Voluntary doesn’t mean much. Reasonable suspicion doesn’t mean much. In general, protection doesn’t mean much if you happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Which can be anyplace, at any time. So…the good news? My criminal procedure outline is coming along. In addition, the Prof. distributed copies of the exam from the past two years, and it looks totally manageable. I can do this. I’m going to finish the outline this afternoon and then review some of my supplements. I hope everyone has a great day.
Posted by newlawmom on December 5, 2009
This is officially reading week. I took last night and all day today off from law school. Tomorrow is back to work. Criminal Procedure will have my undivided attention tomorrow. Monday will be split between Crim Pro and a paper I need to write for my 2 credit class. Tuesday will be a day spent at the law school. I need to work on some moot court things, get copies of old exams for tax, crim pro, and evidence, and attend a review session. Wednesday will be devoted to the paper I need to write. Any leftover time will be spent on criminal procedure. On Thursday, I expect my tax exam to be available. I will pick that up at school, and also attend a review session for Evidence. Friday will be spent making sure that all of my outlines are 100% complete. Friday night I am going out. By the end of the week, I expect all my outlines to be 100% complete and to be theoretically ready to take these exams, which I will have almost another week to study for. So…I hope all my readers have a good week.
Posted by newlawmom on December 4, 2009
I took one. While I was there, I started a new blog. Check it out at www.deliberatedecade.wordpress.com. There you will find the rest of my life outside of law school.
Posted by newlawmom on December 2, 2009
I didn’t even look at my exam schedule until today. As it turns out, I have PLENTY of time. One of my exams is take home and I get three weeks to do it. The two that I need to sit for are not scheduled until the 18 and 21 of December! All this loveliness and tomorrow is my last day of class! Now – there is absolutely no reason for less than perfection on these babies. Absolutely no reason at all. I need these grades to bring up my averages from last year. For tonight, reading for tomorrow. Tomorrow night I will plan my time. Motivation during the interim will be a struggle perhaps? We shall see. I’ll write again soon. Good luck to everyone. (P.S. Yes, I do still have children. They are doing quite fine. I will be setting aside some time for them as well.)