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OId habits die hard

Posted by newlawmom on June 23, 2011

I am a procrastinator. I am a night owl. I am a smoker. I am bad with money. These are my weak points. Maybe I am prone to short term addictions as well – right now, its the Anthony trial. These are all time and money wasters. They bring large amounts of anxiety into my life. They don’t help me. I have tried to overcome all of these problems at one time or another. I would like to just eliminate all my problems all at once. My life would be better for it, or so I think. The list looks pretty manageable but it’s been the same list for at least thirty years. So I must be missing something. I just want to fix the problems.

I have very good things in my life right now. Happy, healthy children. A future spouse who loves me. A beautiful home. An education. People who respect me. And for now, my own health. There are no impending catastrophes, no drama. If there is a time where I have all the support I need to fix my problems, this is it. So why is it  that I am scared shitless to even try? I am immobilized by the thought of it.

The bar exam is simple. Sit. Study. Repeat. But it would be so nice if at the end of the day I felt good about myself. So that is my current project. I need to move some money, set a budget, give up the smokes, and adopt a normal schedule. If I did all of those things I would start fresh and maybe have less reason to procrastinate. This has got to be my main goal for the summer. It simply must.



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Bar Prep Update

Posted by newlawmom on June 15, 2011

I haven’t quite figured out what I want to accomplish with this blog, but I am sure I want to use it. So here is the most recent update. I’m studying for the bar on my own with no BarBri. And I’m feeling pretty good about. I have spent many hours preparing outlines, answering practice questions, outlining essay answers and searching the internet for free study aids. I found a cool site today that allows me to make flashcards to study online. I also found some bar prep sets that other people have prepared. Offhand I don’t know the name of the site, but I will get it to you if I continue to use this FREE resource.

Money is my main obstacle at the moment. I live on a tight budget and have decided not to pick up any legal work until at least September. I still have plans to open my own practice but I look all the time to see what type of work is out there. I had applied for a few summer jobs that I would have loved, but didn’t get them and figure that all things work out the way they are intended. But over the past two weeks I have spent almost $1000 on unexpected urgent expenses. This is bad. I live on cash. One car repair, a recharge to the air conditioning system, and of all things, a very unexpected asthma attack that got out of hand and all the medical/medication expenses that go with it. I am self-employed and pay for my own major medical policy at a rate of over $300 a month but until I meet my high deductible (hopefully never), I pay cash. Ouch.

My kids got out of school today. I love those boys more than life. This is certainly my last summer to spend at home with them, so I aim to enjoy it. As it works out, I have enough room in my car for each child to bring a friend practically everywhere we go. The age difference is only four years, but at 11 and 15, they don’t exactly play the same way or enjoy each others company too often. So a friend for each of them makes them happy, and if they are happy, I am happy. Tomorrow we are off to the local state park to buy a season pass. That will get me into a couple of ocean beaches and a few local lake/forest options. So far, we have very few specific plans. We will be traveling for a week immediately after the bar exam. My daughter and her boyfriend will join us for that trip, and it will be awesome. The 15 year old will be working part time, so that will complicate some things. But I’m sure it will all work out. I’m also sure the time will quickly pass by.

When I’m not with the kids, I’m combining bar prep with the Casey Anthony trial. I confess to being overly absorbed in that. Funny – I am defense minded. But in that case, I think the defense is just disturbing. Maybe I would feel differently if they were sticking to more of an “absence of proof” defense. I could live with that and maybe even buy into it. At a minimum, I would feel strongly that she was entitled to it. But to attack the grandfather, for me, is just wrong.

So that’s it. That’s all. I have nothing else to add.  I hope you all have a splendid week. I’ll write again soon.

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